(Note: The title of this blog is a reference to the movie Zoolander.)
I started my 16th cycle of Temodar last night. I am down to 200mg per day. I wonder if this will be a breeze, or if I will still feel crappy by the end of the week – like usual.
On a related/un-related note: I keep having a recurring bad dream that I suddenly lose the ability to read. At a subconscious level I realize I am having these dreams because I heard a story about this on NPR and I have been reading a lot of books on neurology and strange brain agnosias.
Maybe I take the potential of a reading deficit to heart because reading skills are housed in the parietal lobe and I am worried my tumor will grow, thus rendering me illiterate. (That doesn’t sound like the right word for it, but still…)
If I can’t read, then I can’t type and communicate here. I couldn’t do my job. I couldn’t read all the cool books that make me so happy.
I am stupid for even thinking about this.